Life has become prolific. Memories sometimes come flooding back and I am not sure what to do with them all except be overwhelmed and keep busy so as not to crumble. Then I sleep. Then I go out into the sun, and there are children laughing and birds chirping, and dogs barking. It’s heavenly. I can’t really imagine anymore the darkness I used to be in or have within me. I really prefer not to form deep attachments. Nevertheless, my feelings have a great depth and my love a great sensitivity. I can recall with great accuracy moments based on my photographs, most of which I’ve kept. I was never really able to let anyone go that truly felt for and understood me. I never underestimated that.
I’m enjoying caring for my animals and my husband and extended family. I believe that with God I won’t mess much up. We’re so blessed with our space here. I have gratitude daily.
There is so much joy an assembled Adirondack chair can create. So much depends on that.
Beyoncé just broke a bunch of Grammy records. I am so happy for Houston, for Texas, and for women. I’ll never forget listening to Bills Bills Bills with Laura in the back of my mom’s red Chevy convertible in the seventh grade and singing along. Everybody’s come pretty far since then.
Erika
