I finally understand why women stop working to care for their husbands. I finally understand why having a focus outside of our homes is so unnerving and seems so impossible. I finally understand what it’s like to let petty drama consume life. I finally understand imperfection. I finally understand what it means to marry and love a man. What it means to give of yourself to a tornado of a human being!! Why Grimes gave all she had up for Musk, and had his child. This is the ride I’m on. This is the ride I want. To want someone’s children. To not want anything else.
God I know I’ve lost so much of myself. But if it could just be possible to not mess up this one thing in my life, please grant it. I am just Erika. You offer forgiveness constantly. How about memory and peace to move forward with my decisions? You offered so many blessings to my sister. I just want a slice of the pie. You continue to offer them.
Don’t know if I’ll ever see anyone I used to again. Know that if I loved you, I still love you, and we will meet again, farther down the road!!!
Erika
